Last year, the dream of having Kai was just taking shape. We knew he would be ours, but had no idea how this journey would unfold. It has been incredibly hard, wonderfully beautiful and so life giving. I am so deeply grateful that he is ours. I am so thankful for the love and joy he brings and the nearness of God in the good and hard and unknown. Joy is not necessarily the absence of suffering. It is the presence of God.