A few weeks back, we encountered a setback in our adoption. I was driving the boys home from speech therapy. I was crying and Asher said, “mommy, do you know why you are crying?” I explained that this adoption is really hard and sometimes it is hard for me to believe that God will take care of us. He looked out the window for a moment and started to sing, “when I am afraid, I will trust in you, I will trust in you, I will trust in you.” I don’t know how much of what I said resonated with him, but his response ministered hope and life to my soul.
When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust and am not afraid. You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book? This I know, that God is for me. In God, whose word I praise, in the Lord, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I shall not be afraid. What can man do to me (Psalm 56: 3-11)?
The truths of this scripture tells me that I can respond to my fear by reminding my soul of the truth of who God is. He is worthy of our trust. He is near. He is deeply acquainted with my sorrow and my trouble. I can trust Him with the hard, the messy, the broken, the dark. He is for me, He is for the orphan. He is for the vulnerable.How often my soul needs the simple reminder, the simple command to look up. When I am afraid, I will trust in you.